Sunday, December 26, 2010

Thinking

I thought that we'd grow old together, and lord I miss him now!

reminiscing...

life... its a lovehate situation.

These are just a few of many quotes over the last few days that my darling granddaughter has posted  on facebook.  Christmas is a very hard time of year when you spend it without those who are no longer here to share it with.  Christmas Eve I was at Mary's watching her make cookies and talking when I made a comment about growing old and time going by so fast and how scary it was.  I guess I was expressing the emotions that have been tearing at me lately since Kim died and how fast we go from being young and healthy to being older and wondering about our health and well being.  I looked at my daugther and granddaughter and started to cry.  I mean it's sad to think that someday we will not be here to see the ones we love so much...... Whatever the real comment was............. I forget my actual words...............Kathryn said something to the effect about not having to be old to die.................With tears welling up in her eyes and softly falling down her young beautiful face she said, "it doesn't matter how old you are, David was only 21".  You are right Kathryn.  Life is so uncertain............so unfair sometimes.................I know this Christmas was hard for you............Since David has been gone your life has been so empty and sad. I know the first Christmas since he has been gone will be the worst Christmas of your life.  Death of someone we love teaches us to say, "I love you."   It teaches us to not take each other for granted and to spend a little more time doing the little things that mean so much more and not letting moments pass by without a smile or hug.  At least thats how it should be. We need to say I am sorry more often and mean it.  We need to say I love you and mean it.  We need to take the time to enjoy those we love.  The little things in life are what count in the end.  The material things and the money we work so hard for, are worth nothing.  They can not comfort us when we are sick or dying...But a hug, a kiss, a smile and a touch can bring us that comfort we all long for.  I remember before Jimmy's mother passed away how everyone of her children and grandchildren were at her bedside for days.  This made a lasting impression on me because my grandmother passed away alone, with no one to hold her hand and whisper words of comfort as she slipped away to be with God.  This made me so sad. 
A few weeks ago Mama and I fixed some Christmas flowers and I took them to the cemetery.  I got out of the truck and walked over to where she was resting peacefully.  I sat down and pressed my face against her tombstone.  I talked to her as if she were sitting next to me.  " Mama Lola can you believe that your oldest granddaughter is almost 60?"  I miss you so much", I said, "I wish you were here to see my beautiful grandchildren that you never met.  Chloe', Joleigh, Katie, Stone, Kaiden and Grayson would touch your heart.  I wish they could taste your dumplings and fried apple-butter pies.  I miss your smile and laughing eyes, your humor and your hugs and kisses.  I miss the way you loved me.  I miss YOU!"  I kissed her stone and rubbed my hand over her name then stood up, got in my truck, and drove home. 

Memories have to be made..................in order to be remembered......................

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Lone Lilly

My little Lilly growing all alone

How smooth your velvet petal

One day your shining in your glory

Next day your almost gone





I love to see your soft delight

Your sense of dewey love

There is a freshness that dawns for me

In morning's early light

TRIBUTES TO THOSE WHO SERVED IN VIETNAM AND THOSE THAT DIED

VARIOUS PICS FROM VARIOUS PLACES IN MAGNOLIA

When you were my little sister
Sometimes I didn’t like you much
You were a brat, and ratted on me
When I thought I knew it all

Even though you got spanked
It was a fun ride huh?
Golf carts required no license
So why should that Barracuda?

I always wondered if the keys would
Ever be found
I didn’t tell you then cause
Besides being a brat you tattled

But then we grew up and went separate ways
You grew into a lovely young woman
You were still my little sister
But not the brat I once thought you were

We’ve shared many moments together
Stumbled and fell, yet never failed
To be there for each other
Sisters are that way

My prayer for you this special day
Is to see life come full circle
To know your worth is measured
In the kindness you bestow

We share that special bond
Only sisters can attest
To understand, not judge, just love
No matter how we fail

So be happy, enjoy the rain when you
Hoped the sun would shine
Change only if you want to
Sometimes roses bloom in winter.

By Debbie Aycock Williams 2008

I love you,
Happy Birthday

copyright 2008

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The leaves are gone and bare branches solicit the heavens The warm days are spent, lingering blades of grass Glisten from the morning frost Seeking absolution from their iniquities. Ensuing eradication wounds the external covering And when they have relented at last The hope of resurrection rests in the seed That was scattered long ago. By Debbie Aycock Williams copyright 2009

Chloe's and Joleigh's graduation from 6th grade......Katie graduated from 5th Congratulations girls!

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Kathryn how do I describe the overwhelming pride you bring to my heart?
When I think back to that rainy night you were born until this very day that is
Filled with sunshine and happiness, accomplishments and expectations of what tomorrow holds, I remember a precious first grandchild, What excitement ensued.

From the time you pushed the front door open and went head over heals down the steps and we spent half the morning in the emergency room. Of course you were fine and I was a wreck. The hours we spent reading and playing will always be memories I cherish like no others. Memories of birthday parties, a scared little girl going into the operating room, Christmas and Easters at Granddaddy ‘s and Mama Kitten’s, vicious bathtubs, special times of doing nothing but being together. There are memories here: Toys you played with, books you read, notes you wrote and pictures you drew; Saved in a box with your name on it and They are all here in my heart, the same heart that is filled with love and pride for you Kathryn, For all you stand for, the caring, loving, kind woman you have become. You are one of God’s gifts to me. I love you.


Nana
written 2009 for her graduation 2010 Now that she has read this

in her yearbook, I can post it on my blog! I love you Kat!







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SPECIAL THOUGHTS FROM OTHERS

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As I walk through my garden I touch the tiny leaves
Of my lonely rose bush

It stands all alone, by itself
No other nearby

The hibiscus grow profuselThey entertain each other with colors of purple and white

And mix together as the wind blows
Back and forth

But my little lonely rose bush
Has no other to share its quiet beauty

Only the bees occasionally fly by
And my fingertips when I feel the velvet petal

Someday soon, I shall plant another rosebush
So my lonely rose won't stand alone

And when I no longer walk through the garden
My little rose won't miss my loving touch.


By Debbie Aycock Williams

Copyright 2007


I'VE DISCOVERED I DIDN'T KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE KEITH WHITLEY

TO MY THREE GROWN CHILDREN AND THIRTEEN GRANDCHILDREN I ALWAYS WANTED YOU TO

BUT MY KIDS ARE GROWN AND MY GRANDCHILDREN ARE GROWING UP,BUT STILL I LOVE YOU ALL SO VERY MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!